#dazatsu playlist

[no-longer-moonlight]

Does any have or know of any dazatsu song playlists?

[dazatsuweek]

🌇Answers to a few questions asked in the interest check:

Q: Will there be an extension for posting our works? A: Yes! Details will be announced together with prompts after the interest check ends.

Q: Can we write fanfic or is just fanarts? A: Yes, you can write a fanfic! You can also make a video edit or a playlist, take a photo in cosplay or whatever else your heart desires, as long as it's a fanwork made by you. Full event rules will be announced after the interest check ends.

Q: I haven't written a fic in a long while and I was wondering there could be a way for me to have a beta reader. A: Yes! I'm a fic writer too so I'd be happy to help (feel welcome to message me on my personal account here @eijunes or on twitter) or I could share your request for a beta reader on the event accounts.

Q: English isn't my first language, so i'm worried that my works won't be as good as i'd like them to. Would it be okay if i posted both the translations and the original works in russian/ukranian? A: Yes, fanworks in all languages will be welcome! And if you'd like for someone to proofread your work in english, either me or someone from the community could help!

Q: Are old works allowed into the week even if they weren't made for it? For example, I have a few fanfics lying around and would love it if they got more recognition should the theme fit! A: Sure! While I encourage creating new works for the event, all fanworks deserve recognition no matter when they were created. If the themes fit, go for it!

Q: Another question is, are there fixed dynamics, or are either fine (both Dazatsu and AtsuDazai)? I don't mind if it's fixed but I tend to depict them as switches. A: Any dynamics are fine! Just please tag your works accordingly, so that people who prefer only one fixed dynamic know what to expect.

[chouetteffraie]

(Un)Official Dazatsu Playlist

that’s right, folks, Asagiri said Dazatsu is canon and this is the official celebratory playlist ;) unfortunately that’s not true but god I wish

Anyway, here’s my Dazatsu playlist! Feel free to play the age old game of “which one has Kenna tried to write a songfic to” if you’re feeling bored! joke’s on you it’s all of them

The playlist has 37 songs and is updated occasionally as I find more songs I deem fit. Spotify is my main record keeper, though I made a YT playlist just for y’alls! I put 10 here that I feel give me the strongest Dazatsu vibes to give you a taste, and to avoid having an even longer post >.<

spotify link // youtube link

▶ Heaven Knows - Five For Fighting

Tell me where the good men go Before I wash away Walk me down the old brick road So I can die where I met you Hold me like we're going home Turn your tears to rain Bury me beautiful Heaven knows how I loved you

▶ I Would Do Anything For You - Foster The People

Every day is a battle I face Strange life I lead but it's what you've decided I'll give it all into your hands, Do what you will with me, and oh I'll smile when you speak Remember those times I was hoping for something And shaking my head from all I've done But you never left me

▶ Something I Need - OneRepublic

You got something I need In this world full of people, there's one killing me And if we only die once, I wanna die with you (you, you, you)

▶ The List - Michael Barrow & The Tourists 

(please please PLEASE scream @ me about the major dazatsu vibes this one has I’m literally begging you I will love you forever if you do. inbox, dms doesn’t matter just please)

So I'll add your name to the list Of all the things I don't deserve The stories that I've never told Are the only ones you've heard You're well aware of my weaknesses But you never said a word And I wonder if I'll ever be enough And I ask myself if I'm good enough for love

▶ You Be Love - Avicii ft. Billy Raffoul

I will be your compass If you'll be my north I will be your sailor If you'll be my shore You can be the gravity I'll be the fall You can be my everything I'll be your all

▶ Someone To You - BANNERS

And if the sun's upset and the sky goes cold Then if the clouds get heavy and start to fall I really need somebody to call my own I wanna be somebody to someone Someone to you

▶ Meet Me In The Woods - Lord Huron

I have seen what the darkness does (Say goodbye to who I was) I ain't never been away so long (Don't look back, them days are gone) Follow me into the endless night (I can bring your fears to life) Show me yours and I'll show you mine (Meet me in the woods tonight)

▶ Tenerife Sea - Ed Sheeran

Should this be the last thing I see I want you to know it's enough for me 'Cause all that you are is all that I'll ever need I'm so in love 

▶ Just Some Guy - Anthony Rapp

(god this one has big vibes too hnnnng)

And I say "Your heart is so big, and your mind's so alive, you have passion and freedom and vision and drive, you have so much to give and you give it with care, you have helped me to heal, and there's nowhere I won't go with you."

▶ Beside You - Marianas Trench

And if your heart wears thin I will hold you up And I will hide you When it gets too much I'll be right beside you

spotify link // youtube link

I hope you enjoy! Let me know what you think and if you have any recommendations for me!

[intothatweebshit]

calling all dazushi/dazatsu shippers! I’m creating a playlist on Spotify and need suggestions for songs that relate or just make you think of Dazai and Atsushi.

reblog or comment your song suggestions so I can add them to the playlist

[eijunes]

Everything changes when Dazai discovers a playlist Atsushi has always kept secret.

[read on ao3]

for @/NoLongerBeast_ on twitter as a part of @dazatsu-exchange 💛

[violetamidstthesnow]

"Even when we're new in this kind of dance, even if we stumble and step on each other's feet, somehow we still dance the same rhythm."

Artist rant (i guess) below:

this is my first finished digital art, it went really flop and out of my expectation that i have some kind of burning hate for it. It just stayed in the gallery, i used ibis paint (great app btw) and well i tried making it again but it went flop too, like more flop than this, made me really angry lmao. But i was encouraged to post it, i just remember getting excited for making it and having fun while listening to some underrated songs, (called alternative songs in a playlist by hasoyi,check it out it had some really great songs) and well, effort goes to waste if i don't atleast post it right? So i posted. But like yeah, flop piece atleast i had genuine fun with it. Anyhoo thanks for coming to my tedtalk the documentary of the wild frustrated artist.

Plus reason is Dazatsu. I love them.

(i swear tho i'll get back to this mf someday, i swear and it won't flop next time...hopefully)

[drangues]

i literally have good little girl in my dazatsu playlist so seeing you draw it was ndjdjshsb a TREAT 💐💛💐💛 thank you so much lolol

OH MY GOD?? OH MY GOD ASKS ABOUT MY ART MAKES ME SO HAPPY U MADE MY DAY <333

[soukoku-rivals]

I’m back - time for another long rant.

Hello there!

I’m back from my holiday and as promised I’m going to reply to all your comments today! Not that it’s as exciting as I’m trying to make it sound but, well, I love your comments and I hate to just leave you with nothing.

First of all:

Yes, yes I am. That’s why the first villain was Sapkowski. Can’t stand the Witcher series [just a personal preference, I understand why many people love it, I just hate all of the characters and the constant gloominess. I need more variation and it’s hard to care what happens to the characters who you’d rather see dead].

Innymi słowy, tak, jestem Polką.

Secondly, amazing @dsknsk is already translating chapter 5 to Dutch and you can find it HERE!

And now replies.

Can’t remember which page it was, sorry:

Oh, I dare. There’s more where that came from.

I just hated on Sapkowski for all his gloominess, but here I am with part 2, where 90% of it is angst. Hypocrisy much? Definitely!

Page 42:

Forgive me for replying collectively but there’s a limit to the number of pictures you can put in a post.

Does Fyodor sound threatening? Yup. Can he get abusive? Yes. Will he, though? I was going to leave it unanswered for spoiler reasons but I realise that it could be triggering for some people if I jump with it out of nowhere so, spoiler, yes. He will. I’ll try to keep it to minimum, though. It’s mostly psychological abuse. Which is just as bad as physical abuse. And really, it’s bad.

As much as I like Fyoya, their relationship here is unhealthy, definitely at least dub-con and I cannot support that in any way. Believe me, I want Chuuya to get away from Fyodor in this story as much as any of you.

As for Dazai worrying for Chuuya - I wanted more of that. Way more. But this is Dazai, he wouldn’t let himself be so vulnerable in front of people. In the first draft I actually had him lose his composure earlier but it was so much OOC that in the end I had to change it. I hope it fits him better.

I’m glad you’re up to date and I hope you did well on your finals. Fingers crossed!

I’m also happy you enjoy the way this story is going. I always worry I make it too complicated  or that I dramatize too much but knowing that people like it anyway makes me more confident.

As for Dostoevsky, dear gods I love that characters but he’s definitely too much of a creep here.

Page 43:

Crying is actually very good for you and I’ll defend it especially in fiction. Though, I understand the feeling. You don’t want to see people you care about crying.

But, really, it’s good for Dazai. He let everything out and now he can think of a plan. And the situation is much more complicated than what was already explained. Fortunately, Dazai is the sharpest knife in the drawer and he knows that.

Also, the squad is huge! I just started working on the ‘resque’ part of the chapters and I have to minimize everything. We’re only going to see a tiny part of the operation.

And Dazai got that hug, Atsushi is the best boy, precious, protective baby.

Page 44:

Atsushi is the best, yes, we all agree.

To be honest, he’s the type of character that me from 5 years ago would absolutely hate. So many bad things happened to him, yet he’s still one of the gentlest souls in the canon. I would get bored immediately.

The me-now realises how precious these characters are and how little of them are actually well constructed and not killed off for the sole purpose of shock value. We must protect that kid!

I actually never shipped Dazai/Atsushi.

At first, before we got more Chuuya, I didn’t ship Dazai with anyone [not even Kunikida or Odasaku] and as for Atsushi it was Akutagawa from the start.

Later it was Kyouka but I hear some people view this as pedophilia. Okay, I get where that comes from, but for me they’re both still kids, and their relationship would be purely romantic. They both have many issues they need to overcome and I think they would be able to support each other nicely. Now, however, I’m very much inclined towards Atsushi/Lucy. And that says something since I can’t stand real Montgomery’s books and usually that impacts how much I like the character [looking at Poe here, my biggest love after Chuuya and Dazai, can’t find a logical way to put him in the story though].

Anyway, if anyone ships Dazai/Atsushi, feel free to do so! There’s plenty of accidental Dazatsu here! have fun! As far as I’m concerned you can ship anyone. [I’m wondering if anyone ships my OCs with anybody xd]

Chapter 5, cover and page 1:

Yes, we need something light and heartwarming. We need balance or at least some contrast.

The thing is I watch all these angsty AMVs on youtube [I practically have Take Me To Church, Wires and Glass Heart in every. single. randomly generated. youtube playlist. Sometimes I get Circus to mess things up]. And I watch them, and I sit there, tears in my eyes, thinking ‘I just want my babies to be happy! Why can’t they be happy?’. And then I sit to work on this story and they’re still not happy and this time it’s my fault. I’m a cruel person.

Heh, heh, that’s not a nice flashback for the most part. That’s not a nice chapter. I would get myself a band aid and some painkillers [wine’s very good]. Just warning you.

[melodyne-le-fay]

I made a playlist

[mossymint]

Finally finished making a playlist for dazatsu! Took a solid month, but I'm pleased with the turnout.

If you have Premium, the songs rotate between Dazai's and Atsushi's perspectives to tell a story (which will mirror a fic I'm working on), but I think it's pretty darn good on shuffle too, lol!

[viobliterator]

concert date - a dazatsu fic

I’ll upload the next and final part after I finish. In the meantime, I thought it would be easier for everyone and less overwhelming if I split the full thing into parts. Enjoy the fluffy portion! 

notes: this whole story is based on a couple of concerts I’ve been to with friends. i actually named all the bands mentioned after streets in Toronto with cool-sounding names   

click here for part 2

word count: 2874 of 6546

ship: Atsushi Nakajima/Osamu Dazai

summary: Atsushi and Dazai are in for a treat as they go to see one of their mutual favourite bands after a hard day at the Agency. But things don’t always go as planned. 

Today was actually quite the busy day at the Armed Detective Agency in terms of sheer workload. If there wasn’t an active case to work on, the office was swamped with reports and other paperwork to write. Doppo Kunikida, the agency’s second-in-command, called for all hands on deck and he ruled the office with an iron fist. There was to be no dilly-dallying until everything was done - even past closing. This exacting and methodical nature of his was something he thrived on and was proud of.

   The whole morning, the main office was a cacophony of laptop keyboards clicking and clacking. Aside from everyone’s exhausted fingers at work and fellow detective Ranpo Edogawa’s constant munching of junk food, one could practically hear a pin drop. Everyone in the agency was focused and working to the bone.

 Even Osamu Dazai - who was infamous in the office for his being the embodiment of Sloth, was actually working diligently. Atsushi Nakajima, who worked right beside him, couldn’t help but glance over once in a while at his senior and find it quite the conundrum. He caught glimpses of Dazai’s head bobbing to imaginary music as though he had his headphones on, but that was about it in terms of him showing his distractible, normally carefree nature. Atsushi thought that surely his mentor would be up to something, especially to throw Kunikida off of his precious schedule on a chaotic day like this. But perhaps for once, today wasn’t the day. After all, despite being a complete goof most of the time that thrives on chaos, Dazai did know when to take things seriously when it came to a tough situation, as Atsushi had seen before. It was something he admired in him.

   The golden-eyed young man had almost lost himself in the report he was typing up when he suddenly heard the rough but timid sound of a piece of paper moving on the wooden desk he worked on. He paid no attention to it until he felt a gentle nudge on his arm coming from the direction of his co-worker. Atsushi glanced at Dazai for a moment in slight annoyance, as though to ask vexingly what he wanted. His mentor’s lips curled into a grin and his dark brown eyes shifted from Atsushi to the small piece of paper he slid towards him, and then back over to the lad. It seemed like he was telling him to look at the little piece of paper.

   Although this note seemed to be rather important, this wasn’t high school. For someone that was 22 years old, he sure acted like an impudent teen at times.

   Atsushi gingerly flipped the torn bit of paper over to see what it said.

               “I’ve got a surprise for you~”

The were-tiger could practically hear his co-worker singing the contents of the note. Atsushi furrowed his brows, sneakily taking out his phone to avoid Kunikida’s glare, and began to quietly type a message to Dazai.

   “Why don’t you just text me? Or maybe just talk?”

Atsushi proceeded to send the text message. A moment later, a loud buzzing sound emerged from Dazai’s coat pocket resting on the back of his chair. Like an eagle, Kunikida’s hazel glare from across the room seemed to freeze time itself. As Dazai reached into the pocket where the buzzing sound came from, Kunikida promptly stood from his seat, pointing his finger towards the resident troublemaker.

“Dazai!”

Atsushi flinched at the sudden loud voice that cut through the air like a steel katana.

“Oh come on, Kunikida! What if it’s an emergency?” Dazai whined with a visible pout.

“Emergency, my ass! You’ll have a real emergency on your hands if you start goofing around on your social media or whatever!”

“I don’t even use social media.”

Kunikida clenched his teeth, and pushed his glasses up on his nose with, fittingly, his middle finger.

“Dazai, I swear to God if you don’t get your bandage-squandering kiester back to work --” he began, fist clenched.

“Alright, alright, fine. You sure are a cranky-pants today.” Dazai complied, raising his hands as though Kunikida’s rage was a truly dangerous situation that needed to be diffused. However, Atsushi figured what probably got the mischievous man next to him to fess up was the fact that he insulted his senior’s curious habit of always wearing bandages.

Dazai grumbled something unintelligible under his breath and glanced towards Atsushi with his dark brown eyes. Seeming to be irritated at being called out, he began to scribble something on another sheet of paper and quietly tore the fragment, passing it to his silver-haired apprentice.

               “That’s why.”

The were-tiger’s heart sunk. In an instant, Atsushi began to write another note in reply and passed it along to his co-worker. He did his best to avoid the prying eyes of his supervisor.

“Sorry…”

“No worries!”

   Dazai’s note replied, with an added smiley-face on the bottom of the note. The lad couldn’t help but smile at the crude drawing. Atsushi began to write once more.

               “So what’s this surprise?”

   Atsushi was mentally preparing himself now for this so-called “surprise” that Dazai supposedly prepared. He was expecting it to be something relating to his quest for a perfect, clean suicide, but just as the lad boarded his train of thought, his co-worker slid two small rectangular, cleanly cut sheets of thick paper towards him. Inky black barcodes decorated the edge of each paper almost like the hem on an article of clothing. Atsushi caught a small grin as Dazai started typing on his laptop again, tucking his curly brown hair behind his ear. Curious like a true cat of the wild, the 18-year-old flipped the strange papers over to see what the other side contained. Upon registering what these papers indeed were, The were-tiger gasped loudly before he could even think. A jovial, grand smile crossed his complexion and his burst of joy echoed through the office as he realized that they were two concert tickets to one of his new favourite bands.

   Atomic Avenue was playing tonight, just an hour after the office was scheduled to close for the day.

   Dazai hastily brought a finger to his lips to hush Atsushi. In spite of trying to suppress the joy he was announcing to the world, he was smiling just as wide as his younger friend.

   The two men usually took the subway together on their commute to the Agency - that is if Dazai bothered to show up to work that day. After a while of working and hanging out together, the older man began to offer to share some of his music with Atsushi. The lad was hesitant at first since most of the songs Dazai sang along to at the office were about enthusiastic double-suicide, but Atsushi mustered up the courage to finally browse through his music library when he was offered the opportunity to pick whatever he liked. As Atsushi had never gotten such luxuries before at the orphanage he was raised in, he relished the opportunity to be able to choose a song from a phone and just play it through a pair of shared earbuds…

To just enjoy music with someone he could call his friend...

Dazai saw sharing his music tastes as a subtle opportunity to get to know him a little better, and as a way to try to open up to people a tad more. After all, wouldn’t Atsushi do the same thing because of how much he trusted him?

For some reason, Dazai saw someone looking through his music library as a very intimate thing, and felt a little vulnerable and naked as Atsushi would continuously scroll through artists and songs that he would very likely not know, or wince in disdain of his musical repertoire. After all, why would he like any of the same things he does?

Through the hell hole that was Osamu Dazai’s short but infinite life, music was one of the few of life’s little pleasures that kept him going in this oxidizing world. It gave him hope, even if it was hope for one day being able to commit a lover’s suicide to the beat of a catchy tune. How would Atsushi be able to understand that connection?

And then, it happened.

Despite having no knowledge of the band, or any of the music on Dazai’s playlist for that matter, Atsushi had randomly picked Atomic Avenue with one of their more popular songs. The smile that began to grow on the younger man’s face made Dazai’s heart flutter, as the lad seemed to enjoy what he was listening to. Despite this irrational fear of rejection the former mafioso felt, Atsushi enjoyed this side of Dazai he found at the end of this wall. It was hard for Atsushi to get to know him at all because of how reserved he was despite his cheerful exterior, but music had miraculously brought the two of them a bit closer.

It meant a lot to the two, and it seemed tonight would be a celebration of sorts for both of them.

However, Atsushi and Dazai both knew that neither of them would be able to celebrate their favourite band coming to Yokohama tonight if they couldn’t get their work done on time.

And so, the pair both buried their heads in their laptops and went to work once again…

The rendezvous time had finally come for Atsushi and Dazai on their journey to the Atomic Avenue concert. They had actually managed to get their paperwork done earlier than first predicted, which thankfully gave the two time to plan on when and where to meet. The plan that they came up with was Atsushi meeting Dazai at his dorm after a quick change of clothes, since they lived in the same building. A rock concert like this would certainly not be the place for their normal work clothes, so they had to look the part as best as they could.

Atsushi, with the limited wardrobe he had, ended up choosing to wear his versatile white collared shirt under a taupe pullover hoodie. The lad also decided to wear a pair of blue jeans and comfy sneakers that he’d bought with one of his first paycheques. Now was the perfect time to finally wear them, as he hadn’t had many opportunities for social outings.

   He had finally arrived at his friend’s door, hitting his knuckles against it three times to signal his arrival.

   “One second!” A muffled, enthusiastic voice sang from the other side of the wooden door. A series of clattering noises and bumping sounds filled the air before the doorknob finally turned. Atsushi couldn’t help but feel a little bit excited, but he just couldn’t quite put his finger on why. Was it the mystery of what sort of outfit his superior would wear? Was it the fact that they were having a night out together? He didn’t know something so mundane in the eyes of many would affect him this much, and in such a positive way as well.

   The young man’s heart jumped when the door opened. Dazai’s hand emerged from the space he created, grabbing onto the edge of the door. But something was a bit different.

   As well as Dazai’s hand being bandaged like it habitually was, he was also wearing a black wrist brace. The brunette’s head popped from the open door, a wide grin plastered on his face.

   “Hey, Atsushi!” He sang. The older man opened the door the rest of the way, revealing a mostly dark, but still well-thought outfit. He was wearing a long, simple spring coat that matched the colour of his dark brown eyes and hair. He also wore a white collared shirt just like Atsushi and wore a dark blue scarf to cover up some of the bandages that crossed his chest that wasn’t already masked by the shirt he wore. He never seemed outwardly ashamed of the bandages he continuously wore, but wouldn’t go out of his way to confidently expose them to the world either. The tall man wore a pair of black pants and a pair of comfortable looking shoes to finish off the ensemble.

   Atsushi couldn’t help but like what he saw, but his attention quickly focused back on Dazai’s new hand accessory.

   “What’s with the wrist brace? Are you alright?”

   An idea flashed in his head like a lightbulb. “Did you…?” He cautiously began to ask, wondering if his superior tried once again to take his life. The older man frowned, as though he had been offended by the lad’s inquiry.

   “Heavens, no! Do you really think I’d try to end it all right now and stand you up right before our big night out? That’s just plain rude.” He said, crossing his slender arms.

   “That’s… comforting?”

   “Don’t you worry. I’ll have you know, I wouldn’t miss these guys for anything. Not even a golden opportunity to give up the ghost with a beautiful vixen.”

   “Whatever you say, Dazai. So why the brace?” Atsushi asked, pointing towards his companion’s hand.

   “Ah. I was getting ready but then I shut the closet door on my hand by accident.”

   Atsushi grimaced at the incident playing in his mind. The older man clapped his hands together excitedly with a gleam in his eye.

   “So! Let’s get going then!”

   The younger man smiled back at him. When his partner had a genuine smile on his face that wasn’t one of the many fake ones worn that seemed a bit too sharp at times, it was contagious. Atsushi was glad that his friend had something to truly smile about and look forward to in life, even if it was just a rock concert. The little things in life seemed to be able to keep one going even at their lowest point, and that was something the were-tiger understood more than most.

   The two men had taken public transportation to the venue Atomic Avenue was playing at. On the way there, they enjoyed the simple pleasure of each other's company. There was a silence that filled the space between them when they couldn't come up with conversation points and normally times like those would make Atsushi feel as though he weren’t good at talking to people. However, this was different. The silence between them was comfortable, as though the lad was back at his dorm and cozied up in his bed. There was something about the presence of Atsushi’s superior that calmed his anxious heart and made him feel safe. There seemed to be an aura of warmth around the man that made him feel as though he were more than everyone in his life had told him he was… He felt as though he was okay just being himself - not just that, but he felt encouraged to be the best version of himself that he could be. The lad caught himself glancing at Dazai every so often, with resting his head against the streetcar window and staring out at the passing scenery. As the sun set in Yokohama, the waves of dying sunlight cascaded through the window and reflected in his curly brown hair and distant eyes that seemed to be wandering in their own world for the moment. Atsushi didn’t know why he enjoyed watching this so much. There was a part of him that wouldn’t have cared if the concert had suddenly been cancelled, as long as he got to spend this time in quiet bliss with his mentor and friend.

   “What’re you thinking about?” The lad muttered, leaning forward to get a better view of his face. Dazai’s eyes widened and lit up as he snapped out of his little trance.

   “Hm?” He acknowledged, turning towards Atsushi.

   “I asked what you were thinking about. You were off in your own world for a minute there.”

   “I was?”

   “Yeah!” Atsushi chuckled. “So, what were you thinking about?”

   Dazai looked down, his eyes being a cracked open window that showed a little bit of vulnerability.

   “Actually, I was thinking about how I’ve never gone to something like this with a companion before.” He mumbled with a slight grin. “It’s nice.” He said, locking eyes with Atsushi. The younger man felt his cheeks begin to flush. It was rare to see this side to his mentor.

   “I-It is?” Atsushi stuttered.

   “Of course…” the elder replied, “When I get wasted, I’ve got someone to take me home. No more drunk tank for me!”

   The lad felt his warmed cheeks from a few moments ago turn ice cold, and he couldn’t help but roll his eyes.

   “...Is that so?”

   “I can tell you right now, sleeping in the drunk tank really does a number on your back,” Dazai exclaimed.

   Atsushi felt his heart sink. It was just like Dazai to turn a subject like this into a joke. He would come so very close to opening up about himself for once; but just when he would begin, he would it suddenly with a sarcastic joke or an offhand remark, as though he suddenly would become fearful at the last second and turn tail.

   The pair finally arrived at their stop before Atsushi could confront him about this irritating and unhealthy habit.

[weretigerkun]

For the flower asks: hydrangea, lily, rose, buttercup, petunia~! Hope you enjoy answering them if you'd like to! (From Lea

Of course I’d like to answer them! Thank you for sending these, Lea

hydrangea: what inspired you to begin writingin the first place?

For writing itself, I don’t know. I alwaysenjoyed writing, even as a child. I was an avid bookworm, and I think I wantedto replicate the way writers could make readers feel so deeply with their words. Also, for a very long time, writing was myform of stress-relief, a way to cope with a very miserable time in my life.

For fanfic,hmmm, I’ve always loved works for their characters, so I liked exploring that.Characterization and relationships, weird AU’s and scenarios, stuff thecreators wouldn’t include. I had my bad OC and crack fic phase too hahaha.Basically, I wrote them because I wanted to see them myself. I don’t rememberwhen I first discovered fandom (I’ve been here for a very long time….) but I’mpretty sure my reaction was a combination of jaw-dropping and holy shit people are writing about myfavorite works of fiction! Time to devour everything!

lily: do you listen to music when youwrite? if so, do you have a specific playlist for it?

Recently I’veonly been writing in silence, but occasionally I dolisten to music! Usually I have the same couple of songs on loop. I alsousually rely on my Spotify new playlist of the week (so I can’t link it, sorry),but here are some compilations that I also enjoy:

Daughter’salbum “Not to Disappear”

The Nier:Automata soundtrack

Lo-fi playlists like this one

GrillabeatsJapanese-type beats

Vaporwave like 2814 - Birth of a New Day

Back when8tracks was still alive, I used that a lot too :(

rose: which of your works is yourfavorite? why?

Yay, I love this question!

Of all myBSD works, my favorite one is thedistance from me to you. Objectively speaking, it does need more editing,but since it was the first dazatsu work I’d ever written it was also the mostraw. It was the culmination of all my feelings about Dazai and Atsushi afterwatching/reading the series for the first time. I think it’s the most accuraterepresentation of my understanding of their relationship! :) Plus, it has allof my favorite things to write: canonverse, missing scenes, introspection,fluff and angst, and the teasing hint of there being something more to their relationship. Pre-slash,so to speak.

Also, all ofthe comments were so encouraging!

As for non-BSD works, I really love muscle memory (rated explicit).It’s a Shingeki no Kyojin fic, Levi/Eren, canon-divergent, and was written whenthe Beast Titan had just appeared in the manga so everyone was wildlyspeculating on his nature. It’s very much not a stereotypical fanfic (one of myless popular works too); it’s neither romantic nor sweet, but I love it as awork of fiction in itself. It’s long, dark, violent, tragic, and highlyexperimental, but it holds a very special place in my heart

buttercup: do you prefer to write requests orcome up with your own things?

Both arefine! I like requests because they give me more ideas, but of course that dependson whether or not the request is something I would actually write. My personalideas tend to be single scenes or concepts/AU’s (which I think is obvious in mywriting style), so it can be hard to flesh out entire, complete fics out ofthem sometimes.

Butbasically, I am open to fic requests!Send some in if you like :D No guarantee I can write them all, but I appreciateideas~

petunia: who is your favorite character towrite for? why?

Lookingthrough my fics now, I can see that… I usuallywrite things in Atsushi’s POV. Huh. Maybe writing Atsushi just comes moreeasily to me :D But I think it’s also because I love the way he looks at Dazai,the way he sees him, and the fact that Atsushi’s trauma and inner struggles arestill all so fresh but natural tohim; he’s so honest about them (because he feels so deeply, the poor boy).

This is incontrast to Dazai who’s also pretty interesting to write, but because he’s soguarded, it feels strange for me to constantly voice out his thoughts andfeelings. I know it’s “show don’t tell” (a rule I constantly break), and Dazai’smind would be a very (painful and) fascinating place, but I prefer writing himfrom other people’s viewpoints (also because I haven’t read the Dark Era andDazai’s Entrance Exam light novels, so I don’t have a complete understanding ofhis backstory yet).

So yes, Ithink Atsushi is my favorite character to write for :)

[ol-razzle-dazazzle]

Yo!! 2,3,6,14,15,20,29,30 ;)

I’m sorry my dude, I caved- bold is your questions. 

1- Who is the most affectionate? Honestly it’s pretty shared. Admittedly they’re tentative and not really used to contact and affection, but they just melt into it.

2- Big spoon/Little spoon? I know he’s shorter but sush is the big spoon with his stront tiger arms, Dazai is warmth under his hugs

3- Most common argument? Honestly anything regarding death, Dazai’s still not used to someone calling out his suicidal tendencies- but aside from that Atsushi thinking he’s not good enough and/or the amount of frrrrrrrosted flakes.

4- Favorite non-sexual activity? Probably just something simple like going out on walks, or nestling into each other…

5- Who is most likely to carry the other? Atsushi, Dazai has noodle limbs and Atsushi is buff as heck

6- What is their favorite feature of their partner’s? Appearance wise? Uhhh Atsushi likes Dazai’s hands, perfect to hug. Dazai likes the little stripey stretch marks on Atsushi’s hips and arms, commenting his little tiger stripes.

7- What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other? mmmMMM well everyone notices that Dazai’s not asking people to commit suicide with him, and how his smile seems to be more…genuine. As for Atsushi, he’s less nervous, and more talkative. They also start joking with each other and it’s the good shit

8- Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate? Y’all ‘my love’ is the dankest pet name- and you can bet your furry loving ass they use it. Normally they don’t slip out the sappy stuff like that and just use each others names, but dang

9- Who worries the most? Both??? They both are each other’s most important person, and aren’t sure exactly about anything in life???? They worry more about each other than themselves aadfhlks

10- Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant? Dazai, because Atsushi’s usually ordering chazuke, or something simple. Dazai on the other hand, is more impulsive and changes his orders all the time. 

11- Who tops? YOU KNOW WHO, IT’S THE UNDENIABLE ZIGGITY ZAGGITY TRUTHS UNDERSTAND? HI

12- Who initiates kisses? Atsushi, Dazai’s style takes too long comparing stuff to  summer days and oh his bf’s smooch

13- Who reaches for the other’s hand first? Dazai. Atsushi’s hand is comforting and warm. 

14- Who kisses the hardest? Depends on what time of night ,’:^)c Generally though Atsushi in the wink wonk times, but Dazai is fervent

15- Who wakes up first? Dazai, has a habit of wake up fall back asleep syndrome, before nuzzling into Atsushi

16- Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer? Both, they just want the snooze snuggles.

17- Who says I love you first? Dazai pretty much goes on and on about it without saying it, but Atsushi just fills in the gap. His favourite thing is when he’s flustered Dazai enough that no other response than an ‘I love you’ suffices.

18- Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?) They normally are terrible cooks, but you can’t really screw up a sandwich or rice right? They usually do it if one’s away on a job, Dazai usually puts terrible jokes (how many sushi jokes can one make???) or tells Atsushi to miss him and Atsushi puts little doodles of cute motivational tigers like ‘you can do it’- which are collected in the second drawer underneath Dazai’s desk.

19- Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first? Ranpo, Yosano, Kenji, the Tanizakis, Kyouka, Fukuzawa, Kunikida- because literally everyone saw this coming. They just walk in and Ranpo’s like ‘THEY KISSED EVERYBODY PAY UP THE SNICKERS’

20- What do their family/friends think of their relationship? FULL SUPPORT SQUAD. EVEN THE MAFIA SUPPORT IT. Like fuckign bumps into Mori like ‘oh Dazai how’s your boyfriend? you two look sweet’ and ??? how did you know???? Yosano, Ranpo and Kunikida are the biggest supporters. 

21- Who is more likely to start dancing with the other? *strokes my strictly ballroom AU like a James Bond Villain cat this AU isn’t dead someone please talk about it with me and Gwen* Atsushi

22- Who cooks more/who is better at cooking? THEY BOTH ARE TERRIBLE DO NOT TRUST. THEY HAVE NEVER TOUCHED ONE (1) STOVE WITHOUT IT SETTING ON FIRE. 

23- Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines? Dazai, come on is this even a question

24- Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times? owo… Dazai, but Atsushi occasionally surprises him and goes completely out of left field. 

25- Who needs more assurance? Both, they both sove and lupport each other and it is beautiful.

26- What would be their theme song? That vintage meme song with the cat lover who keeps loving cats  I’m weak so maybe Love Like You? Or Don’t Stop me Now if that wasn’t chuuatsu mood idk if y’all have ideas pls tell me i would kill a man for a dazatsu playlist

27- Who would sing to their child back to sleep? why is this question here i don’t need to think about a family au don’t do this to me i have 53 aus already but Atsushi

28- What do they do when they’re away from each other? Dazai usually tries to befriend any stray cat like ‘tell your leader I love him’, Atsushi usually hums the songs Dazai muses over- also they text each other a ‘asvjkhret’ or something every so often so they know they ain’t dead. 

29- one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart: The reason they are so awkward and nervous with affection is because they’ve literally never experienced any real sorta ‘love’ in their lives, and they would die for each other. However, they still are burdened and Atsushi sometimes winces away from a touch or Dazai lies and laughs that empty laugh.

30- one headcanon about this OTP that mends it: They decide to be as honest with each other, and slowly learn to be okay with themselves, and quickly develop into while not a ‘full on pda’ couple one that holds hands and hugs a lot. 

[chouetteffraie]

Normally I wouldn't post every time I add a song to the dazatsu playlist but Hesitate by The Jonas Brothers is quite possibly the second biggest Dazatsu mood of 2019 after the s3 ending so I feel it's worthy of being announced

[fresnonightsister]

man i need to organize my character playlists... theyre a wreck

[eijunes]

I call out your name | dazatsu playlist [listen on spotify]